Oh, how I hate being anxious. I used to think my stomach issues were food related, but now I’m not so sure. I’m used to living day-to-day with some stability and consistency, but living in a third-world country doesn’t promise that. Ever.
I feel like I’m in shoulder deep water with little breathing space as I’m facing issues beyond my ability and beyond my control. I literally cannot handle these things things from a mere human perspective. I just can’t. Trust me, I’ve tried.
All the while I hear Jesus say, “Oh, ye of little faith.” I sorta despise these words; but at the same time, they bring comfort because they’re always followed by, “Don’t fret. I’m in control.”
Although trusting that is easier said than done, I can rest assured that He is with me. And not only so, but he has also gone before me. He will provide. He will satisfy. He will be my source of rest. He will be my refuge. He will redeem. He will uphold me. He is Almighty God.
"…Paul said: “I am a Jew, born in Tarsus of Cilicia, but brought up in this city. I studied under Gamaliel and was thoroughly trained in the law of our ancestors. I was just as zealous for God as any of you are today. I persecuted the followers of this Way to their death, arresting both men and women and throwing them into prison, as the high priest and all the Council can themselves testify. I even obtained letters from them to their associates in Damascus, and went there to bring these people as prisoners to Jerusalem to be punished…When I returned to Jerusalem and was praying at the temple, I fell into a trance and saw the Lord speaking to me. ‘Quick!’ he said. ‘Leave Jerusalem immediately, because the people here will not accept your testimony about me.’ ‘Lord,’ I replied, ‘these people know that I went from one synagogue to another to imprison and beat those who believe in you. And when the blood of your martyr Stephen was shed, I stood there giving my approval and guarding the clothes of those who were killing him.’ Then the Lord said to me, ‘Go; I will send you far away to the Gentiles.’” - Paul, Acts 22:3-5, 17-21
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways.
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
- The Lord, Isaiah 55:8-9
Missions is about the worship of Jesus. The goal of missions is the global worship of Jesus by his redeemed people from every tribe, tongue, and nation…Missions aims at, brings about, and is fueled by the worship of Jesus.
I leave for Haiti in less than one week. 5 days to be exact. I thought moving my whole life to California was a challenge. However, I’ve come to realize that moving my life to a third world country is a greater challenge.
Six months ago, I journeyed to Haiti for the third time to spend time at the school and seek answers from the Lord of whether or not I was supposed to be there for a longer term. While sitting in the window seat on my flight back home, I decided that I would obey God’s call on my life and follow Him to Haiti. A month later (February 28th to be exact), I launched my blog and fundraising campaign. On April 15th, I moved back home to Indiana after living in California for 8 months. On May 20th, I found out that I was fully funded for my 2 year commitment in Haiti.
Why would we need to experience the Comforter if our lives are already comfortable?
You may fear that the Lord has passed you by, but it is not so: he who counts the stars, and calls them by their names, is in no danger of forgetting his own children. He knows your case as thoroughly as if you were the only creature he ever made, or the only saint he ever loved. Approach him and be at peace.
I just love this.
I wouldn’t normally post a journal entry; but I decided to share genuine thoughts about my year as a 22 year old.
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Today I turned 23. Let me tell you, my 23rd year of living was quite the adventure. I had just graduated from college, had my first full-time job, went to Haiti for 5 weeks, moved to California for 8 months, went to Haiti for 10 days, decided to move to Haiti, spent 2 & a half months fundraising (Feb. 25—May 18), returned home to Indiana on April 15, and etc. I even got to meet Goofy at Disneyland and meet Francis Chan. What a year full of sweet adventure with the Lord. It has definitely been a year of much growth and increase of faith. It’s amazing to look back and see the ways God has been the center of it all. It’s truly amazing to see what happens when you put all of yourself in His hands. I’ve seen God at work more in this past year than ever before. I can only be excited for what’s to come. I pray that the faith journeys would never lack zeal. I can’t wait to see what unfolds as I pursue Jesus. Cheers to a great year and to the start of my 24th year of existence. Life with Jesus is so exciting! May the joyful adventure live on!
Thank you, Jesus.